Monday, December 19, 2011
REFLECTION: NEW YEAR, CONSTANT CHANGE
With the opening of my container boutique in the Dekalb Market this past July, I fulfilled a dream and then a goal that i had for many years. It's been exhausting as well as exhilarating. I received an education that like education in general was met with some difficulty but also little victories that I began to learn how to celebrate.
I acquired new clients, made new friends, lost some old friends, I still mourn my very best FRIEND and I gained additional insight into who I am as a person thanks to my family and some people who don't even know they've helped me.
There are days when I want to dance the world away and there are days when i'm so excited to wake up and face what it has to offer.
As I move forward in the new year, professionally there are items on my checklist that I look to bring forth that will not only enrich my life but the lives of others, i'll remain vague about it until I have it more clearly defined. After taking a break from producing fashion shows, I will be showing a new line in September.
Personally, there are relationships I want to repair and nurture and there are relationships that I need to dissolve. If it doesn't happen in 2012, I will not torture myself with the shoulda, woulda, coulda's, I will just continue to move forward because these words are mine, the intention is mine, thoughts and situations change and i'm entitled to change my mind without notice and i'm learning to be okay with that.
The renewed foresight, energy, resolve and gumption that a new year brings is always fleeting and perhaps that's because althought the intention was there, the spirit was not or maybe it was something else. I don't pretend to know any of this as a certainty, these are just my ramblings. I have certainly been guilty of this but I, like most, am a walking, talking contradiction.
I am passionate about my work but I am not a fashionista per se because I also have other passions. I am often categorized as a designer or a photographer or a stylist or a singer/songwriter or an author but I consider myself all of those things. It's not about being a jack of all trades and a master of none, it's about embracing every part that moves you. You don't tell yourself not to breathe. Creating equates to breathing for me.
I guess what i'm really saying is remove the pressures and the stresses of things that you cannot control away from your heart. Rekindle a lost love, put energy into an old passion, find a new passion, walk in your own light because when you walk in the light of others they can easily flip the switch off.
Know that it's okay to have moments of uncertainty but also know that you are strong enough to move forward even if the answer changes. Don't just write in a journal, write a book, don't just sing on the train or a corner, get in the studio, don't just bedazzle a jacket, bedazzle it and then sell it, let's not just get physically fit but work on our mental fitness as well.
We are greater than any once a year resolution, we are greater than any bad experience we may have or will suffer. You are your greatest vessel and only you can take you where you're supposed to go.
Happy Holidays everyone and thank you all so much for the love and support that you've shown me over the years and continue to show me. I am constantly reminded that you all are my gifts because you're in my life. There would be no "B" without you.